life's one happy game

aloophvandal @ 2009-07-19T23:20:00

2009-07-20T04:30:03Z

i haven't used this in such a logn time. i'm just really upset and need to put this all out there but i don't want everyone to know.

i'm still living at home and for the past couple of months my dad and i have been having really bad problems. he's drinking too much and starting fights with me and i can barely spend any time with him at all.

about a week ago he told me that i was a liar and a thief and i was trying to con him out of $500. later that day, after my mom talked to him, he said he didn't think that anymore even though he had no reason to think that. this started because nick and i are going to seattle and he paid for nick's and nick is going to pay him back. i told him i would pay it but he said he didn't want my money.

yesterday i was sitting in his office with my mom and he kept interrupting her while she was talking and i asked him to let her finish. he yelled at me telling me to shut up and get out. i told him he was being a jerk and he told me i wasn't a good daughter and that all i did was mooch off of him. i went into my room and locked the door. about 10 minutes later he came to my room tried to get in but just said through the door that he was moving out. he packed up his things, didn't say anything more to me and an hour later he was gone. he came back around 5 today and we still haven't spoken except when we pass eachother moving through the house.

i'm really upset and don't know what to do. i don't know if i can forgive him. he told my mom that he felt like he was getting attacked and that he's under a lot of pressure.

luckily a friend and i have been talking about getting a place together recently and we've already started looking.

aloophvandal @ 2008-11-04T19:14:00

2008-11-05T01:14:32Z

i found a book today that contained a story that i wrote in 6th grade. it was awful. that is all.

haha no that's not all. i dedicated it to my teacher "who made me write this story"

that is awesome.

aloophvandal @ 2008-10-12T21:53:00

2008-10-13T02:58:58Z

i saw my cousin's daughter, mallory, this weekend. she looks like me when i was her age (i think she's 3) and it just makes me so happy. its such a nice feeling. nobody else in my family looks like me.
you know when little kids run at their parents and attach themselves to their legs? she was doing that to me by the end of the trip. i'm gonna miss seeing her a lot but she wore me out. i'm so tired and not ready to be around little kids all the time. i don't know how my cousin does it. and they have another baby on the way.
mallory was running around the backyard with my aunt's dog and she went "come on margot, let's rock!"

aloophvandal @ 2008-08-20T18:45:00

2008-08-20T23:50:52Z

so i cleaned my room/switched rooms and painted it and i like it.
as i was doing this, i found an old picture of nick and i that nick's mom had given to me for christmas about 3 years ago. i put it on my dresser and pretty much didn't look at it again. then i was walking by and i decided to look at how young we look and there's a face in the corner of the picture!
i immediately show it to my parents and then to my friends when they come over and everyone assumes it is a ghost and that it looks like a relative of nick.
i tell nick about it and he doesn't really believe me but then he comes and sees it and gets really excited and tells his friends about it.
we then go to show his mom. she looks at it and laughs because this picture was in the same batch as a halloween party and at walgreens you can have "ghosts" put in the pictures.

nick is disappointed. he was so excited to gave a ghost. he even took a picture of the picture before we found out it was fake.

aloophvandal @ 2008-08-07T19:25:00

2008-08-08T00:48:06Z

so i just got my wisdom teeth out about an hour ago. i wasn't expecting to do it today. i just went in for a consultation and since i hadn't eaten yet today he was like "well. you must be hungry but let's take those suckers out."
of course i was nervous because i really don't like needles or people touching my mouth or doctors. i should be used to them by now. anyway, he gave me the anesthesia and started moving the chair up and down and it made me start giggling then the next thing i know i'm still giggling and being put into the car. then went to walgreens to get the painkillers and while my mom was in there i took out the gauze and it was disgusting. i had to spit a lot of blood out of my mouth(even though they told me not to spit at all. or to use a straw which makes me sad. i love straws.).
now i'm watching beauty and the beast in my new room. i painted it and my dad built shelves and more hanging rods into my closet. i love it. its amazing. i'll have to show pictures because its beautiful. when i want to eat dinner with just one other person i can in my room because of my table/desk/tv stand.
nick is here. he won't kiss me because he doesn't want to hurt me. phooey on him. i love him though.

these painkillers aren't doing much for me though. oh well.

aloophvandal @ 2008-07-28T02:00:00

2008-07-28T07:03:03Z

i find it so sad that something that once meant the world to me just passed by.

in other news: i party too much, sleep too late, and have too much free time on my hands.

maybe next year i'll go.

aloophvandal @ 2008-05-30T20:21:00

2008-05-31T01:29:49Z

i went to the store and bought two boxes of wheat thins on wednesday. my dad ate nearly an entire box and then tried to deny it even though i hadn't opened it and it was next to his computer. also his blood sugar is in the 300's and he's diabetic. way to go dad.

i have allergies. it sucks. i thought i was sick but i'm not. at least i hope i'm not.

i went to mexico about a week ago. it was amazing/beautiful/ the best vacation of my life. next year will have to be even more amazing. if that's even possible.

i'm going to mexico next week.

i'm more tan than i've been in years. i don't usually stay out in the sun for that long. i love being outside though. i'm just in the shade most of the time.

i need to buy a tube and resolve to go floating on the river every weekend. its good for my health. sun and all. and sandwiches!

every paragraph in this post starts with "i" except this one.

(and this one) this year i want to see UU folk sometime. not sure when that can happen though because i can't make it to camp murray for the bridging.

gym memberships don't do you much good unless you go. i suppose i'll go tonight. maybe get some panera bread as well. yummm. (this one too)

i need a job.

aloophvandal @ 2008-04-24T16:49:00

2008-04-24T22:28:28Z

i need to stop smoking hookah so much. this morning i woke up coughing. its not that i'm addicted to the shisha because it doesn't have that much nicotine or anything its just so social and now that i have my own, people come over and that's what we do while we talk.

this summer will be amazing. the smell of honeysuckle is already in the air and it makes me so happy.

i might be going to mexico in may. if not, then i'm definitely going in the beginning of june. the may trip would be with a few friends and we'd drive down there and maybe stay in zeena's dad's friend's condo. i would probably spend so much money there though. so i probably won't go until june when i go with my sister and cousin in law.

also zeena and i are thinking of starting a party planning business. it would be a good thing and we're good with ideas and shopping for good party stuff. this weekend we have a toga party planned but its for our own amusement.

i'm ready for something exciting.

aloophvandal @ 2008-03-14T20:15:00

2008-03-15T01:17:52Z

i went and saw spoon last night. zeena's dad got us v.i.p. tickets so we were on stage! we were literally 5 feet away.

also saw fantasma and i loved them. i can't wait until i get the c.d.

and i met quan cosby the other night at spiro's. he's a really nice and modest guy.

aloophvandal @ 2008-02-06T19:25:00

2008-02-07T01:29:56Z

my dad went to the store and asked me what i wanted. the only thing i wanted was granola bars and he forgot and i was sad. i told my friends this and they were like "granola bars?! that's why you're sad?"

i like granola bars. they remind me of summer.

also i like british accents. yesterday at dirty martin's we had a british server and he gave us a free milkshake.

and i think someone might have my bank account info cause there are things on my statement that i don't remember doing.

i need to find a really groovy dress for tacky disco night.

this summer i think i will have a lot of themed parties and outtings. oh! i had an amazing idea for a 50's themed beach party with a fire and someone with a guitar and lots of singing and colors. i'll need time to prepare. that's why the planning starts now.

aloophvandal @ 2008-01-02T16:27:00

2008-01-02T22:28:14Z

i cut all my hair off. happy new year to me!

aloophvandal @ 2007-12-29T02:43:00

2007-12-29T08:51:33Z

my brother came back for christmas and i think this was the best visit i've had with him ever since he left for college back in 2000. we've been cooking together and going on walks and shopping for last minute christmas presents. i really miss him and i'm glad our relationship has gone back to how it used to be before he left. maybe its even better.

he's always been a good brother and i'm proud of him and to be his sister. soon he might be going to barcelona because he's come up with a way to fold proteins in a better way than they were doing before.

in other news, i am excited with the new sheets i got for christmas. and for my birthday i asked my parents for a memory foam cover thing. now i just need to start getting things for when i'm ready to move out. i figure i have a while before that happens soooo towels next. i think blue or red is a good color.

the bourne trilogy takes a long time to watch.

aloophvandal @ 2007-12-03T17:02:00

2007-12-03T23:02:58Z

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!

In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.
You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts.

At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding

When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's Your Personality Type?

aloophvandal @ 2007-10-25T10:14:00

2007-10-25T15:15:07Z

I'm going to be Belle from Beauty and the Beast for the Chuy's parade!!!!! I'm so excited!!!

aloophvandal @ 2007-10-03T14:20:00

2007-10-03T19:26:03Z

Comment and I'll give you a letter. you have to list 10 things you love that begin with that letter. After, post this in your journal, and give out some letters of your own.

Bronwyn gave me j.

1. jammies
2. jamaican accents
3. jumpsuits
4. jack sparrow
5. jerry maguire
6. james thompson
7. jars (painted ones)
8. jim's (sometimes)
9. jerry lee lewis
10. jammin to music with hannah in my car!

50 things girls wish guys knew

2007-09-13T01:53:20Z

1)You have to tell a girl how you feel about her...we make no assumptions.
2)It never hurts to work out...take your own advice.
3)Girls like sex just as much, if not more than guys.
4)Not all girls masturbate...we just don't and no we are not lying.
5)We hate porn.
6)Hmmmm...guys in Jeeps...yummmm...
7)Girls need food, water, and compliments to survive.
8)We think about you all the time.
9)Being able to make us laugh is so much more important than how much you can bench-press.
10)We may think you are gay if you wear tighty-whities on a regular basis.
11)Hold our hand.
12)No backseat drivers...NONE.
13)Girls generally don't like giving head, so you better be ready to reciprocate if and when you get it.
14)We are not your all-night restaurant.
15)Anything we say or do during that 4 days to a week each month cannot be held against us.
16)If you hold our hand while you are driving we will be thoroughly impressed...especially if it's a stick.
17)Under no circumstances will we have a threesome.
18)You look hot in hooded articles of clothing.
19)If you think for any reason that we don't like you then we probably don't.
20)Having us over while you and your friends play video games does not count as "quality time".
21)Just because we groom ourselves on a regular basis does not mean we're high maintanance.
22)Never comment on how much a girl eats...ever.
23)Keep in mind that we withold sex when we're mad at you, so you might wanna get around to apologizing...
24)You just can't force us to like sports...especially those associated with the WWF.
25)We're typically smarter than you...so get over it and stop whining when we get better grades than you.
26)If you do not own a wife-beater, stop reading this list, and go invest in one...right now.
27)The ability to play the guitar will help you get laid.
28)We're sorry, Brad Pitt just IS hot...get over it!!!
29)Walks in the rain, kisses on the forehead, and cooking dinner for us will get you everywhere.
30)Just because we're in a serious relationship doesn't mean we plan to marry you someday, so stop being so damn scared!!!
31)If you're developing such good finger skills playing video games, you better put them to good use sometimes.
32)Anything you do or say to another girl that you wouldn't want us to know about is considered cheating.
33)If we can admit that we're wrong, you'd better be able to do the same.
34)The excuse "I can't dance" is unacceptable...we'll appreciate the simple fact that you're trying.
35)On that note, if you refuse to dance, expect us to dance with other guys...and lots of them.
36)Think before you speak...it'll make a world of difference.
37)Not all girls kiss on the first date, get over it...we're creatures of mystery.
38)Make fun of our clothes...prepare to die.
39)We don't always expect you to pay for us, but it doesn't hurt to at least offer everyone once in a while.
40)Tell us we're beautiful.
41)The "little things" in a relationship are really the biggest.
42)Foreplay isn't something we should have to ask for...it's a prerequisite.
43)Don't screw us over...especially if we have an older brother or protective guy friends...they will hunt you down and kill you.
44)If you're gonna look at other girls, at least make sure we don't see you do it.
45)Just because we're still just "hanging out" doesn't make it ok to sleep with your ex-girlfriend, friend with benefits, etc.
46)No girl just wants to be your "friend with benefits".
47)We're sensitive too...be gentle (and we're not talking about our hearts here guys).
48)One word when it comes to smoking...quit.
49)We reserve the right to hate all of your ex-girlfriends.
50)If we happen to trip, fall, etc, while wearing the exceptionally high shoes that we love, go ahead and laugh...we will be...that is unless we hurt ourselves...

aloophvandal @ 2007-09-10T15:47:00

2007-09-10T20:55:52Z

so i finally bought my own car about two months ago. its a '99 nissan altima. i like it.

a while ago i was driving home from sam's with nick and he was inebriated. he had been telling his friends all night that he loved them. in the car the whole way he was saying "i love those m***** f*****s. i'd do anything for them. those m.f.'s are the best m.f.ing friends. i love those m.f.s"
i was trying so hard not to laugh because he was being so serious. i love that boy.

i like a.c.c. i don't care what anyone says. the professor's are cooler and the classes are smaller.

the kitten my sister rescued has run away. we think that either her tail is holding her hostage because its her arch nemesis or some little kids found her and have been bribing her with tuna. those are the only options i accept.

i don't know how to be a grown up. i don't want to do that yet. it can wait.

aloophvandal @ 2007-06-24T15:46:00

2007-06-24T20:47:19Z

hannah: your name is leah
you are a badass
with a style full of flair and full of class
if i did not know you
i'd wish i knew you
and try to find a way to talk to you and befriend you
but we are friends, and that is awesome
and i feel that everyday our friendship blossoms
a little more
than the day before!!!!

aloophvandal @ 2007-05-15T00:02:00

2007-05-15T05:13:25Z

for asha and kenny:

this past month has been pretty ridiculous. i started hanging out with the chillmunity, trying to socialize a bit more than usual and getting done with school. that's priority this week. it will be done though. i know it will be.
my family is crazy and always has drama. prom was fun. i enjoyed tim's rant to me afterwards. i did not enjoy being awoken by mi familia who desperately need to see the pictures. but oh well. lots more sleep.
this weekend ashley and i will be aboriginals and it will be amaaaaaaaazing.
i hope in the next month, after graduating, for my parents and i to agree on a system of getting me a car. i also hope to take said car on road trips.
and i want to talk to people more. i've been secluding myself into my job saying that i don't have time for other people. i do have time. i just don't want to make the effort unless they reach out to me. that opens our connection to where i may contact others.

i am also in love, sam earthwood you can't make fun of me for this, nick carpenter is pretty much the greatest boyfriend i have ever had. ashley's the best soulmate i've had and dane is the best friend/brother that i could ask for. soren's also the best soren a soren could be.

contact me and i'll contact back

aloophvandal @ 2007-04-27T18:14:00

2007-04-27T23:19:16Z

things that have happened lately:
-chillmunity
-getting my own desk and phone line at my job
-finding new jeans with no holes in them!
-buying a bike for $10
-disowning grandparents
-getting ambushed by little children who made me play with them
-short-term food addictions. my new one is poptarts and orange gatorade. i think i'm slowly shifting into cheddar broccoli and passionfruit juice mixed with sprite again.
-phredd getting over his anxiety and going outside.
-working out sporadically with my soul mate

things that need to happen:
-graduate
-buy shoes
-stop neglecting friends.
-work out regularly

aloophvandal @ 2007-03-14T18:09:00

2007-03-14T23:09:36Z

i'm trying to convince myself that its cute to have knee injuries and a limp...... it hasn't worked yet.

on a side note, i think i'm going insane.

aloophvandal @ 2007-03-04T11:48:00

2007-03-04T17:54:41Z

i don't know about anyone else, but i hate being sick. especially when i have two jobs and have to call in sick for the one that gives me cash every night. i would still go and i did friday but now i don't have a voice and no one can hear me so it'd be pointless. the other is during the week so not a big problem and they're the ones who got me sick in the first place.
in other news, i have little to no social life and that is my fault. i don't try to contact people very often and the only people i do see are through nick or dane.
i also need to buy a car. but that can wait a while i suppose. as long as i get one by this summer.
it feels like i want to go home but i am at home.

also i took that test that bronwyn did

Personality
You are more logical than emotional, more concerned about self than concerned about others, more atheist than religious, more dependent than loner, more lazy than workaholic, more traditional than rebel, more engineering mind than artistic mind, more cynical than idealist, more leader than follower, and more extroverted than introverted.

As for specific personality traits, you are adventurious (100%), intellectual (87%), romantic (86%), musical (74%).

Stereotypes
Prep 85%
Hippie 83%
Old Geezer 83%

By the way, your hottness rank is 79%, hotter than 98% of other test takers.

aloophvandal @ 2006-12-03T22:16:00

2006-12-03T22:16:37Z

so i'm in san angelo. its pretty nice here.
i have a jacuzzi bath in my bathroom and if i had been there this weekend(its not my real home) then i probably would have spent a lot of time there.
i worked this whole weekend. all 72 hours of it. how did i do this you might ask? babysitting the boss's kid while he's out of town. i've watched more movies in the past 48 hours about dogs and children than i have in about 5 years.

this coming weekend i think i'm coming home.

the mall here is closed on sundays....

aloophvandal @ 2006-11-25T07:46:00

2006-11-25T07:46:48Z

my time in austin is coming to an end. how do i feel about this is a question i've been asked many times.

to be honest i'm pretty apathetic about it. its just another chapter in my life. if it works out then great, i'll be happy. but if it doesn't then i'll find something else to make me happy.

i'm just realizing that i don't have time to worry. there's too much going on that worrying could make me miss out on. i've spent the past 4 months worrying about everything. its time to stop that and literally move on.

nice knowing you austin. i'll be back sometime.

also my cousin has the cutest baby and my mom's going to be mrs. santa clause in tomorrow(today)'s chuy's parade. she is the cutest old lady. maybe i'll post pics later. maybe not.

aloophvandal @ 2006-10-19T21:26:00

2006-10-19T21:27:13Z

i'm not moving until thanksgiving so that gives just the right amount of time for everything that needs to be done.